Money

     Hello! Well, now I'm staying with another friend and her husband. I just can't wait to get my own place. I’m tired of saying that. I haven’t gotten paid in over a week now and I’m praying that I’ll have some money tomorrow in my account from the unemployment office.
     They don’t forward state mail when you have your address changed. I didn’t know that. I have to track down my W-2 form too. So I didn’t get my review letter from the employment office and  I didn’t make the appointment that they had made for me to show them my job search paper. So last week I didn’t get paid. 
    The lady at the unemployment office filled out a paper about why I didn’t make the appointment and sent it in. When she made the comment about sending the paper in to Raliegh she said, “I hope they don’t take their time with this.” That worried me but I had hoped to get paid any time last week.
     You know the rest already. I’m running out of gas in my car and I need some other things that I’m about to run out of too. There was a note on the ESC web site Sunday when I filed my unemployment saying that my week was filed but couldn’t be processed for payment because of some unresolved issues. That is why I’ve prayed about getting paid tomorrow, that’s my regular pay day. Okay let’s all keep our fingers crossed and thank God for it now. Thank-you Jesus!!

Another Bad Day

     Today was another bad day. It just adds to my stress level that I’ve been experiencing over the last week. The girl that I’ve been staying with for the last month is suddenly fussing at me for things that I think are petty.
     She started on me about a hand towel and then went off on me about last night when I fixed myself something to eat and didn’t offer her and her husband any other it. It was about eight frozen fish sticks with one serving of veggies. I am neither their cook nor their maid.
     Then she said something about I don’t care. I’ve never been accused of not caring, I’ve always been told that I care too much. I ask her what was really wrong and she said that it was only about this small stuff. I really don’t believe that.
     I packed my stuff up and left. I thought she was my friend but now I know better. I just wanted to stay there until I get my student loan and then I planned on moving into my own place. They knew that when I moved in there.
     I made a contract about my stuff in their sheds and made her sign it saying that they wouldn’t throw my stuff out on the ground nor damage anything. I don’t trust her anymore and I just want my stuff out of their sheds and into my own place.

Disgusted

     So today I'm disgusted with Math. I failed my first real test. I know I'm going to have to get help with this because I know how to do the math part of an equation but I don't understand what part of the equation that the question is asking for. I can't fail this course even though its a 080 class. I don't want to do any classes over, that takes up my time.
     This semester is going to be a real challenge with the studying of the different terms. There are terms in all my classes and some I haven't ever seen before. I came straight home today after my classes were over and took a nap. I have to make myself think of something relaxing to go to sleep.
     I usually lay down and think about all the stuff I have to get done this semester and it's stressing me out. I finally was able to sleep last night and take a good nap today. I'm going to sleep well tonight too. I think maybe the stress has something to do with my failing this math.
     Next week I plan to spend some time in the tutoring math lab and try to understand this new stuff. I didn't make it this far in Math while I was in high school,  before I quit and I didn't need this kind of math to get my GED or to get into college either. This demands some determination and that's what I have. I love college and I don't plan on giving up on this now or later. I will succeed.

Stressing out!

     I am so tired. I don't know why I can't sleep lately. I have been working out in the afternoons so I hope it has nothing to do with that because it's the only time I can do it. I have to be at school by 8 am and I already get up at 5 am to get ready, so no chance of working out in the mornings. I'm hoping that I'll just get so exhausted that I will pass out at a early time and get some good sleep. It too could be the stress of starting a new semester too.
     The new semester is overwhelming but since I knew that this time going into it, I'm not panicking. I don't like the idea of starting college almost a week late. I sure hope the bad weather is through with us. Things are being pushed on me now, I don't need anymore homework. Every time that I hear one of my instructor remind me of what all I have to do, it stresses me out. But I keep my eyes on the prize.
     I went to Greensboro today for the meeting on their nursing program. Now talk about stressing out. Everyone is talking about getting in the program at DCCC and how hard it is. I'm trying to register in three different community colleges. I say "trying" because at Forsyth Tech Community College they have one more requirement then  the other two. I'm hoping that they will let me take that extra requirement that FTCC has before the fall program starts.
     It's a computer class and I think I know enough about the computer that I'll be bored to death but who knows maybe I'll learn something new. Hopefully I won't have to worry about that. This is all stressing and this could be the real reason why I'm not sleeping good. If it is I know it'll get better as the semester goes on.

Life Long Learning

     Today I'm dizzy for some reason. I'm still at my friends house. I'm going home this afternoon. My roomy is still texting me asking if I'm okay, "I'm fine," I tell her. It's kind of warming to my heart to know someone is thinking about me and even missing me.
     I'm losing everything today. First I couldn't find my glasses, then I still can't find my cell phone case after dropping it on the floor. I'm hoping to make it through the day without injuries. I'm having a hard time doing my math. I can't remember how to do some of it.
     Since we missed almost the whole first week of school and we have math every day, it's being pushed on us in a faster pace, to get caught up. I'm planning on working on it more later and try my best to get it done. All the work from my college courses gets overwhelming at times but I try to keep in mind that all this hard work is going to pay off one day.
     Now to go back to what I'm usually talking about; I can't wait to get my own place. I can't understand why our community college takes so long to give us our financial aid. I'm not trying to wish my life away but I really do wish this was February already. I know, it'll be here before I know it. Things are going to get better for me soon.

My Crazy World

     Today is different, so far. My friend that I live with had surgery on her skull the other day and she is in a bad mood now. She and her husband are arguing a little more and I figured I needed a break, so I went to stay the weekend with another friend.
     I actually remember what piece and quiet sounds like being at this other friends house. I have missed it dearly. They have a little dog and she is adorable. I have played with her, fed her and loved on her and she is now my friend as well. She is black and white with long hair and big black eyes when you can see them. There are hard wood floors here and when the dog is running on them she slides half way across the room when she tries to stop. That's very funny and very cute.
     I slept on their couch last night and it is more comfortable than the bed I sleep on at home. I actually rested well here too. I'm now working on my homework from school and enjoying that too. I think sometimes it's a good idea to take a break from whatever you are doing or involved with. The only thing that has bothered me, so far, is that I got rejected by a man last night in text messages.
     It's a hard thing to be rejected in any way. I do understand why men don't ask women out so spontaneously, but the way I see it this morning it's his lost because I'm a great woman with great skills as a companion. I can only hope that I can have another great day tomorrow as well.

My Crazy Home

     My home is crazy.  I'm living with my friend and her husband at this time.  They argue a lot and both want to have the last word.  They also have a grandchild that's two years old and she came over this past weekend and stayed the night. 
     When she is there, my friend and her husband will play with her and they are all very loud.  I needed to do my homework, but I can't concentrate when there's a lot of noise.  I was miserable all weekend.  I didn't have the gas to go anywhere and even if I did; I couldn't figure out where to go, the rest of my friends have children too. 
     It's very frustrating to live with people and abide my their rules.  I'm waiting on my student loan to get here so that I can get my own place and have my own rules.  I miss having a place of my own and having a dog.  My brother has a dog that is going to be mine once I move in my place and I am excited about it.  I'm pretty good with dogs and love having them as companions. 
     Dogs are so loyal and unconditionally loving .  I want to walk him every day and have a big enough yard to play catch with him.  He weighs eighty-five pounds of pure muscle.  He is a pit-bull, bull-massive mix, with a black and brown mixed  coat.  He looks scary to others but is a big lap dog.  His name is Hemi.  When I get moved into my own place, I plan on spending as much time with him as possible to get him use to me and how I do things. 
     Also, I want to get my things out of the shed and use them.  I want to decorate my own way and burn my scented candles so that my place smells good without the cigarette smoke smell.  I don't smoke cigarettes anymore but my friend and her husband do and I hate it. It smells really bad and sometimes I feel like I can't breathe.  One day real soon I'll be in my own place and I won't have to worry about this stuff anymore.