Day Dreaming

                My friends took me out to eat and then we did some shopping the other day. I love my friends and I’m very thankful to have them. They want me to be happy and to have a man in my life. They plan on introducing my to a man the day after this.

                First of all they took me to where this man lives and showed me his home; which he lives with his sister. I was surprised that they did that because this man is always working and is never there. They thought it was fun.

                Next they took me to see this house that’s for sale. They were playing around and telling me that this man and I could buy this house together. We looked in the windows of this house and where all day dreaming about what we would do if I got that house. We day dreamed what colors the walls would be, what kind of flowers would be planted in each flower bed. We had fun day dreaming about this place; which was beautiful.

                We went to the Goodwill store in Winston Salem and started day dreaming in there too. We “found” a wedding dress, flowers, two beautiful wedding picture frames, shoes, and dishes that could be used for “my” wedding. We had a really great time day dreaming up my “wedding” and “home” that day.

                I really look forward to meeting this man. I hope we like each other. It’s really scary to meet someone new again. I’m tired of new again and again. It’s time to stay with one no matter what. We’ll see how this goes.

Sleepy

Today was a lazy day for me. I just wanted to sleep. I don’t know why I feel this way but today I was sleepy. I did manage to get myself out of bed to go to my first class but after that I came home and went back to bed for a nap.

                The nap still didn’t help out any; I was still sleepy when I got up to go to my next class which was in the afternoon. I did manage to stay awake during the lecture but I didn’t really learn too much from it because I was sleepy and staring off into space.

                I don’t like it when I feel this way all day. I didn’t get any caffeine in my system until later today. To my surprise it helped me out some, especially with the headache I had. The caffeine woke me up enough to get some homework done that is due this week.

                I’m getting lazier living here with my friend. She is lazy herself and I feel like she should help me out around the apartment if she wants it clean. I’m not going to start doing that a lone and for her to except it all the time. I just hope that I won’t have to live here too much longer.

Meeting a Man!

                Today is a very interesting day. I met a man yesterday at Logan’s in Greensboro. My friends that were meeting him through were all there too. We had a pretty good time. It was loud and crowded but it was good. This is the first weekend that I didn’t do any homework, not sure that’s a good or bad thing.

                So this morning my friend and her husband with the guy I met yesterday came and got me. We all went to Carrel Barrel for breakfast. The service was bad, it was crowded, loud, and the table was too small. My date, Ricky, didn’t like it and said so. But at least we were together and having a good time no matter what.

                I like him and he says he likes me too. He is some-what older than me but it’s all good. Age can be just a number and in this case that’s what it is; just a number. Ricky has his own business and works really hard. I don’t know when we will get to see each other again, but I hope it’s soon and I hope we are a lone. My friend and her husband got on our nerves. But we had a good time and I hope we have better times to come.

Spring Break

Well, Spring Break is almost over and I really haven’t gotten a lot done; not like I wanted to get done.  I still don’t have my room completely done.  I do have an air mattress in the room that I can sleep on, instead of sleeping on the couch. I do like that much better. But my stuff that’s in boxes is all over the apartment.  We have a path in here of boxes to walk around.

I haven’t written any papers for school yet either. I hate that too, so I’ll be up late tonight writing essays’. I have about four essays’ to write for school and now it’s time for scholarships. There are two that I can apply for but I think I’m only going to write the one. That one applies me to other ones that I’d qualify for. The other one wants too much that I’m not a part of to worry about. I’m not going to lie about anything so I’m not writing an essay for that one.

I was given two birds yesterday by an old friend.  They are Finches and very cute that makes the cutest sounds. I want to try to get them tamed and use to me. But I haven’t figured out how to get my hands on one of them without hurting them. I have to handle them to get them tamed. My roommate’s cat likes them too. I have to watch the cat and keep him out of my room.

I’ll get my work done and it’ll be fine. I just hate to rush through anything especially my English paper. I’m going to call the video place and see if they have that movie so I can watch it again. My rough graph is due Tuesday. I’ll have it by then.

Damage

Today hasn’t been too bad.  My friend and I finally got my stuff off the back of her husband’s truck and out of the back of our cars.  It has rained on my stuff twice now though. While we were getting my stuff off the truck, we have discovered that there are cuts and holes in some of my things.

                My television looks like it’s been dropped. It has a bad crack down the side of it that it didn’t have when it went in the other peoples shed (the ones that I’ve been arguing with, that I use to live with). Not sure what the picture will look like. I have to get it plugged into the satellite system to see it.

                There’s a big cut down the middle of my monitor that goes to my desktop. I had put a towel around it and laid it my clothes basket with care. It looks really bad and not too sure it’s going to work correctly either.

                There’s a hole in my computer chair that wasn’t there before. Looks like maybe a screw driver was drove into it. There wasn’t a hole in it either when it went into the shed.

                There are a lot of damages to my things and I’ve been taking pictures of all of it. I plan to take them to court. I have a contract with them that says that they are responsible for my things. I am totally upset about it. I cannot understand what I did that was so bad to make them damage my things. It’s childish and cruel. They said something to me about Karma but they know nothing about Karma. They are the ones that will meet Karma and I am taking them to court. I would never damage someone belongings. That's just really unnecessary.

Friendship or is it?

            Let’s talk about friendship. I’ve lost two people that I thought were friends of mine for over twenty years. Both are really mind boggling and I honestly can’t figure out what happened. It’s amazing to listen to other’s perception of a story.

            About a month ago I posted a comment on my Facebook page about the one so-called friend and it read, “It’s a shame that just when you thought you had a friend of twenty-three years, you find out that they aren’t your friends at all.” Now unless you are guilty of something, why would you response to that comment?

            There was a comment from the other so-called friend, that the comment wasn’t about, that read, “Are you talking about me?” Then under that one was another comment from her husband that read, “I hope you aren’t talking about my wife, because you haven’t been the “friend of the year” yourself.” It was really uglier than that. I’ve been dealing with this so-called friend for years. She is very depressed and jealous.

            Once she wanted to kill herself and called me very late. I lived in another town at the time and I went to her house trying to get someone to the door. No one came to the door and then I could see her laying on the cough asleep. I went to pick her up once when she was upset with her husband. She is also an alcoholic and I’ve had to listen to a lot of drunken phone calls from her crying about her husband cheating on her etc… She had already made a comment on my Facebook page about how she had to read all my other comments from other people and she felt like she was unimportant to me. It’s been an exhausting 24 year relationship with her; I could go on all night about this.

            I lost it on Facebook to both of them. I told them that they needed help and told her husband that he should’ve been with his wife a lot of times instead of cheating on her. I said that a lot uglier. I also told them both that I am done with them. Her husband tried to get in touch with me many different ways because I had blocked him on Facebook. I forgot about Yahoo and he finally sent me a message through that. I shouldn't have read it but I did. I’ve forgiven them both for everything, but I want nothing else to do with them ever.

            It’s really sad though. I don’t understand things but it all happens for a reason. I feel weird now with two less friends. I feel lighter, maybe a little empty. When one door closes, another one opens. This too will soon pass.

Concerned

Today is okay but I have a lot of concerns.  Things need to change for me quickly. I don’t know what I’m going to do if things don’t change. I don’t know where I am going to go either.

                The repo man came in the middle of the night  yesterday and took my car with my personal things in it. I called the repo company and they told me that I’ll have to pay them thirty-five dollars to get my things back. It makes me upset about my things but not so much about my car. I have another car anyway. I got it last week.

                I don’t have any money. My unemployment has run out and I need a job. I want a job on the weekends at Lexington Health Care on third shift. The salary is twelve dollars an hour for night shift. I’d like to work part-time on the weekends. I’ve called them twice to check on the status of their hiring process,  e-mailed and faxed my resume and cover letter as well. I’d really like to work there.

                I have enough money for next month rent and that’s all that I have. I’m praying that I am one of the students that get picked by the LAC center at the college to get that scholarship and soon. That would really help me out right now a lot. I have a little more money coming to me for this weekend working with my friend from school. I’ve been doing little odds and ends for them and they’ve been paying me a little money for it.

                It’s spring break next week. No classes all week long. I plan to get caught up on my school work and put my resume, with the cover letter, in the hands of many employers. I have a long week ahead of me but I know I can get it all done.